WHY????

I am no angel and I never expected my children to be, but I was not prepared for the Phone call I got a few days ago.

 I am on my second marriage and I have three children. I was married to my first husband 11 years, it was a rocky 11 years and I think we were only together for 7 of the 11. I had two children with him and I had a child with my current husband who I have been married to for 8 years. 

My children are 18, 14 & 7. My oldest is a boy he will actually be 19 in July, he never really got along with my current husband and when he turned 18 hauled ass from my house to go live with his dad. You see he has a major problem with authority, he does not like to be told what to do, my husband being in Law Enforcement was very hard on my son and I had to get between them on two occasions to insure that nothing happend in the midst of thier arguements. this is why he moved out and unfortuntely his dad did not care what he did and let him run the city and never knew where he was. There was no one to tell him what to do at his dads house.

Well about October of last year I got a phone call from the Police Dept. saying that they were arresting my son on felony crimnal mischieve charges for throwing oranges through windows of a vacant house. He went to jail and I being as mad as I was at him let him sit in jail for 4 days before I bailed him out. I went to see him and both times I did he cried to me that he wanted out and I told him I never wanted to see him in jail again. Well they ended up dropping the charges on him which he was lucky. I thought he had learned his lesson on that one. I was wrong….

On Wenesday of last week I got a phone call from my husband telling me that my son was fixing to get arrested again. I asked why and I figured it was some stupid charge that he was caught doing something childish again. Nope he went all out this time. It seems his friends and him decided to break into a car lot and steal three vehicles. I was and still am in shock over this one. I called him on his friends cell phone and got ahold of him and he tried to deny it saying he did not know they were stolen bla, bla, bla. I told him that the Deputies were looking for him and he told me he was going to run from the law. I spent all day argueing with him on the phone to please turn himself in. After six hours of going back and forth with him he called me and told me to come get him and his friend that they would go in. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do was go pick him up and drive him to the station for him to be arrested. I got another phone call this morning from my husband, seems there are more charges to be put against him other than three counts of Grand theft auto, and commercial burgulary thats already facing them. It seems they got hold off another stolen vehicle and set it on fire and busted out winshields of cars were his friend lives. So I am awaiting his court date to find out what will happen to him and I can’t help but wonder what the hell he was thinking. It just does not seem like my son, he would never do something like this or so I thought. I had him for eighteen years and raised him to be a respectable young man. I taught him right and wrong and tried to instill the best in him that I could. I just can’t help but think where did I go wrong with him and WHY is this happening.  Why is he deliberatly ruining his life. WHY????